If I die today, my regrets would be the following:
1. Taking up a difficult course when I could have just been lolly-gagging in college. I’ve always thought that having a difficult course means that it will have higher pay or greater benefits than the rest of my friends. nope. My friends and I had the same salary who had more manageable (still not very easy) courses than mine.
2. Being too involved in extra-curricular activities in high school and in college. I had this high school philosophy that “if it is difficult now, it will be easy later”. nope. I was wrong with that one as well. You see, I didn’t ask myself before “is it worth it?” and that could have made a difference. The extra-curricular activities involve hours of meetings after school, training (not certified training), weekend activities telling you to be more responsible or be a leader or be good to other people.
None of those things were actually accounted during my career. None!
What I saw that made a difference is Academic Excellence.
People who got high grades and were top scorers in national licensure examinations got the higher pay and are more likely to be hired by the best companies in the country.
Public speakers, teachers, graduation speeches usually tell you the opposite. That people who are more active in extra-curricular activities are more likely to get hired than people with high grades and are not active. This is incorrect.
Think of it logically, how many students are active in extra-curricular activities versus how many are A-listers in their batch?
There would be dozens of active students versus a handful (maybe two handfuls) of students with 3.0+ GPAs!
3. With number 2 in mind, I should have just focused on joining organizations that are fun for me or at the very least, academically inclined. There are no academic organizations back in our high school. I could have asked the teachers to create one. Maybe a science club, math club, or computer club (not that we have the most advanced computers back then). It would have been more fruitful or less regrettable if that was the case.
4. Telling this girl I like her. This ended up cutting our friendship and ties with our common friends. I’ve always thought like this: “It’s better to know that the answer is ‘no’ than forever wonder if it could have been a ‘yes’, for what’s the worse that can happen?” Of course! Of course! who would have thought that what you hear in speeches and TV and movies are wrong!? Of course! NOT!
The feeling of being trapped and alone and being looked at funny by her friends, looking at each other, whisper and look back at you. THAT IS WORSE THAN FOREVER WONDERING!!!!
If I can go back in time and fix any of my regrets, I would choose this one. I will stop myself from telling her my true feelings. This is more worth it than the first three. Maybe not in terms of total hours wasted on this but the feeling… Oh, the feeling… If only I can forget about that feeling…
I know I have more… I just can’t put them to words yet… I have labelled this as “part 1″… to be continued